current stitching
Jul. 26th, 2025 10:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Following the blanket are two options. One may fail as not a good match of yarn and pattern, so it awaits viability before being described. The other has lapsed twice despite being an excellent match of yarn/pattern. It's a straightforward assemblage of minor texture, knit-purl only (no cabling, no lace), and I wondered whether I'd balked at having to consult two pages at once for something that simple.
Today I began typing it out, which revealed that it has some bits in three places, not two, and it formats one of those places as a pseudo-outline with broken structure while instructing the reader-knitter to iterate unevenly over some of the bits. (For example, knit lines 1-4 twice, for a total of 8 rows---and on the next visit to those lines after doing something else, knit lines 3-4, then 1-4, then 1-2, for a differently arranged total of 8 rows.) I guess reorganizing the pattern to make sense is basically an exercise in refactoring someone's code.
Alas, new glucometer
Jul. 26th, 2025 05:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
United Healthcare, in their omnibenevolent wisdom, sees fit to drop the One Touch Ultra from my preferred drug list as of September. They have offered several alternatives.
My primary goal with a glucometer is to not require a smartphone to do the simple task of marking whether any reading is before or after a meal. Out of their list of suggestions, the Contour Plus Blue meter meets my requirements and is not discontinued.
Joy. And happiness.
(This is the primary care who, upon learning which insurance I had, while we were trying to solve a problem, asked whether I was up to date on the then-recent news about their CEO, then said "You'd think they'd have learned their lesson." She's from Canada.)
Joy from Disability Pride Fest Madison
Jul. 26th, 2025 06:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I go to this annual celebration because it’s a time and place where I am entirely comfortable. That I can do some things and can’t do others is a given. Almost everyone there has been through the process of accepting their disabled self—the non-disabled people are in my experience, enthusiastic allies.
Folks sell things they’ve made, organizations advertise for participants or employees, political folks recruit advocates, there’s music, there’s free food. It’s a hoot!
https://www.disabilitypridemadison.org/festival-2025
I was thrilled to run into half of the staff of adhdcleaning.com, who proclaim they will Clean All The Things and invite passers-by to share their special enthusiasms.
Their promo material is brimming with disability pride:
Accommodating, Compassionate Help Tailored to Your Needs
- Flexible Scheduling, Easy to Cancel
- Allergy/Asthma-friendly vacuum with fully sealed HEPA filtration system
- Keep two disabled adults happily employed!
- Commercial steamer for chemical-free clean
- We care about you and your pets
- No guilt or judgment, ever
They continue with cleaning tips for cool, imperfect humans
This pair of people were dressed up to spread joy
( what a couple! )
From an earlier festival, I captured a Disability Pride Strawberry, in two photos
television serieses on a small screen
Jul. 26th, 2025 11:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
This time I think the disabling part of it was expressed better: first because the male lead's ability to read facial expressions is very good so other people experience it as 'mind reading', he's very aware of their feelings and intentions through their expressions. So when he loses that it's a real loss, he suddenly can't tell what people are thinking and what their intentions towards him are. And there are bits where he blanks his best friend , or gives a stranger the flowers and the hug he meant to give his mother, and those are embarrassing and inappropriate things to do, and he has to come up with excuses. It feels like more of a *disability*. In 'Beauty Inside' when we meet the male lead is after a few years of adjusting to having prosopagnosia and he has more coping mechanisms in place, he's very aware of people's hairstyles and little details like who has pierced ears. In the secret life of my secretary he is only just starting to develop systems, he just recognised faces before and he wasn't keeping track of, e.g., their hair.
Part of it is just the contrast to what he had before that he cannot access now.
THe trouble I had with 'Beauty Inside' is that prosopagnosia is just how life is. Of course I don't recognise celebrities out of context. Of course if I haven't seen someone in a while I need to re-adjust and update my memory of their face. Of course when k-pop boy Hyunjin StrayKids got all his hair buzzed down to a centimetre I could not recognise his face.
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Series I started to watch now that I finished prosopagnosia content: genders again!
A Korean series that just started, 'My Girlfriend is the Man', in which a girl wakes up one morning and finds herself a very handsome boy. It's a condition, it runs in the family.
(i really like the first episode, which introduces the boyfriend and girlfriend, it shows he's devoted by having him show up after her job interview - with flowers - and with plasters for her feet and comfortable slippers to change into, because he knows she wore her pretty-but-uncomfortable shoes. It shows her mentioning her boyfriend giving her a book she loves at a job interview with the publisher of this book. It shows them snogging he walks her home - they are cute and in love and attracted to each other, and the show knows how to show it.)
A Japanese series, 'Cinderella's Closet', in which one of the main characters is a cross dresser who sometimes presents as female and sometimes presents as male.
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Jul. 26th, 2025 03:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Life. Oy.
Jul. 26th, 2025 11:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
SO. Still home in May (i.e. 7 months later than planned) but possibly looking like a very different human.
I put up my middle finger at him.
Jul. 25th, 2025 10:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Belovedest: 6'4", white, short clipped brown hair, receding hairline, white Honeywell dome type N-95 mask, white T-shirt reading" Classically Trained" with a bunch of old-school video game controllers (but not any as old as the ones they started with), khaki colored cargo shorts, dark plastic slide type sandals.
Me: 5'6.5", white, shoulder length dark brown and variously blue fine 2c wavy hair held back with a grey rhinestone headband, violet eyeshadow with black liner behind blue frame rectangular glasses, black Breath of the Nature KF-94 mask, black chain necklace with spikes, silver star necklace, dark blue velour cardigan over a full length flowing embroidered black Holy Clothing dress, smartwatch with rainbow band, several medical bracelets and a medical necklace, some silver bangles with black, violet, and labradorite semiprecious gems, toeless black compression stockings, and a charcoal and violet pair of serious business support hiking sandals, just done driving a motorized grocery cart.
Him: sitting in his candy-colored Tesla, medium colored hair, with a full mountain man beard.
"You fuckin' weirdos," he muttered, deliberately loud enough to be heard inside the open windows of Belovedest's Toaster.
"Same to you, buddy!" I called as he started to pull out, waving my hand out the window.
Supercomputing Teaching, Researchers, and More
Jul. 26th, 2025 03:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I often make the point of how supercomputers are utterly critical for current economic development with an ROI of 7:1 almost all through positive externalities, and literally save millions of lives. Could you imagine COVID-19 vaccines without HPC systems to do the simulations? We'd still be living under lockdown. Well, on a smaller scale, I was very proud to organise a researcher presentation last week for Research Computing Services (RCS) and Melbourne Data Analytics Platform (MDAP) with Dr Debjyoti Karmakar who is developing a non-invasive fetal monitoring device to prevent perinatal asphyxia for high-risk pregnancies. Dr Deb's presentation was very well received, even if he had to take a brief emergency call in the midst of it! He has been making extensive use of both the Spartan supercomputer and our Mediaflux-based data storage system, which dovetailed quite nicely with a virtual meeting a few days later with several representative from Princeton University who also are interested in integrating the HPC systems with Mediaflux, which is not as simple as it should be, but that is the nature of our work.
In my own research, I am still making good progress on studies in the psychology and sociology of climate change denial and have recently made contact with a long-standing member of the UNFCCC Accreditation Panel of Experts and Methodology Panel of Experts who shares this interest. Over the next two months or so, I am hoping to elaborate from this member's own interest on the psychological need for "belonging" and "club membership" which leads to climate science denial being strongly correlated with ideology rather than scientific evidence, and to draw a stronger correlation between this and vested interests in political economy. Ideological positions are usually strongly associated with political economy, so it should not surprise me to find such a connection, and when it comes to the damage done, there are those who are responsible, and one thing we do know from institutional and individual analysis, very few people like to take responsibility.
FFXI Base Story summary (Bastok missions 1-5)
Jul. 25th, 2025 02:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I am pleased to say that I have finished the first set of my documentation! It is here:
https://altheavalara.neocities.org/ffxi/bastok
And is a fan script of the Bastok city-state's rank 1 missions up to and including the rank 5 missions.
Now, this was originally the end of the base game's story, though they added additionally missions later. And each of the three city-states start out with different missions, but then there's a LOT of overlapping (some missions are exactly the same regardless of which city-state you're from.)
I'm proud of the fan script, but it's LONG, and not everyone wants to read dialogue. So I decided to write a summary. It's... also still long, but shorter than the actual game script. Plus it was a fun exercise to explain the story.
Anyway, it's under the cut. ENJOY!
( Read more... )
(I wanna read this later)
Jul. 25th, 2025 04:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
https://bsky.app/profile/fallofromulus.bsky.social/post/3luilylmf3s2z
Sent from my iPad
"Intrusive" [Encanto gen]
Jul. 25th, 2025 02:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
RATING: PG-13.
SUMMARY: Bruno has a special relationship with Casita. That’s not always a good thing.
NOTES: It struck me that even before his ten years inside the walls, Bruno had probably spent more time alone with Casita than
anyone else in his family.
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In a world more beautiful than this it would have mattered more.
Jul. 24th, 2025 10:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
This essay was alluded to and quoted from in several of the essays I read about Edna St. Vincent Millay. I correctly suspected I could find the journal issue (The Outlook, vol. 147 no. 10, 1927) on the Internet Archive, and I'm very glad I looked for it. Here's a couple-few excerpts.
This is also in reference to Sacco and Vanzetti.
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If I could meet one person from history I've always said it would be Millay, but right now I'm so enamored of her prose I can't even think what I'd say to her. To be able to write like that...!
Did you think I was done with Millay? I was not done.
Jul. 24th, 2025 09:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Conscientious Objector
I shall die, but
that is all that I shall do for Death.
I hear him leading his horse out of the stall;
I hear the clatter on the barn-floor.
He is in haste; he has business in Cuba,
business in the Balkans, many calls to make this morning.
But I will not hold the bridle
while he clinches the girth.
And he may mount by himself:
I will not give him a leg up.
Though he flick my shoulders with his whip,
I will not tell him which way the fox ran.
With his hoof on my breast, I will not tell him where
the black boy hides in the swamp.
I shall die, but that is all that I shall do for Death;
I am not on his pay-roll.
I will not tell him the whereabout of my friends
nor of my enemies either.
Though he promise me much,
I will not map him the route to any man's door.
Am I a spy in the land of the living,
that I should deliver men to Death?
Brother, the password and the plans of our city
are safe with me; never through me
Shall you be overcome.
Time to head for the best tasting poem you have. It's Millay Time.
Jul. 24th, 2025 08:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I posted "Justice Denied In Massachusetts" in poetry, and that led me into an absolute Millay spiral. (Also I ended up reading a few pieces like "On Edna St. Vincent Millay's 'Justice Denied in Massachusetts'", and I don't think I realized how many of the poems I already knew are Sacco and Vanzetti poems.)
I didn't feel like inflicting a whole bundle of Millay on everyone who reads poetry but I don't mind inflicting her on all of you. So here goes.
Two Sonnets In Memory
(Nicola Sacco—Bartolomeo Vanzetti)
Executed August 23, 1927
Ⅰ
As men have loved their lovers in times past
And sung their wit, their virtue and their grace,
So have we loved sweet Justice to the last,
That now lies here in an unseemly place.
The child will quit the cradle and grow wise
And stare on beauty till his senses drown;
Yet shall be seen no more by mortal eyes
Such beauty as here walked and here went down.
Like birds that hear the winter crying plain
Her courtiers leave to seek the clement south;
Many have praised her, we alone remain
To break a fist against the lying mouth
Of any man who says this was not so:
Though she be dead now, as indeed we know.
Ⅱ
Where can the heart be hidden in the ground
And be at peace, and be at peace forever,
Under the world, untroubled by the sound
Of mortal tears, that cease from pouring never?
Well for the heart, by stern compassion harried,
If death be deeper than the churchmen say,—
Gone from this world indeed what's graveward carried,
And laid to rest indeed what's laid away.
Anguish enough while yet the indignant breather
Have blood to spurt upon the oppressor's hand;
Who would eternal be, and hang in ether
A stuffless ghost above his struggling land,
Retching in vain to render up the groan
That is not there, being aching dust's alone?
Dream - video game
Jul. 24th, 2025 02:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
...I kinda want this game to actually exist...
boost: Jeangu Macrooy's Political Music Video That Made Me Smile
Jul. 24th, 2025 03:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Thanks to the YouTube algorithm actually paying attention, as well as petra, please enjoy this snappy video with on-screen handwritten captions:
wisdom, perhaps
Jul. 24th, 2025 09:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Joe R--: "Time. Space. Money. Three fundamental resources; exchange rates fluctuate."
Eric B--: "The internet is an infinite storage facility for all the things you don't want in your home right now. You just don't know what the storage cost will be until you try to get something back out."
(Eric is also responsible for "The chief cause of problems is solutions," which I appreciate a great deal.)